A few minutes ago, when I sat down to the computer, I closed my eyes and asked myself how I'm feeling. The way the answer came surprised me. "You are feeling great joy." Not I am feeling, but rather it seems someone else is giving me that message. So then I asked myself why, and the answers came rolling in. "Because your cabin in the mountains will be open in six weeks or so. Because you are going to the art center party tonight. Because finally your new glasses are ready to be picked up. Because you've made plans to go see Charlie play t-ball, and Sidney turn three, and discuss with Annie the book you're illustrating for her. Because after years of not wanting to prepare dinner, you're enjoying it now and making delicious meals. Because you made a breakthrough in thinking on the assemblage you've been working on. Because your body will be feeling better. Because you believe what you wrote the other day and are back on the track training for your life long marathon. Believe me now?"
It's not everyday I have the feeling God is laying on the evidence, telling me what I should know, if only I were smart enough to see myself clearly. I think I'm out of the funk that began a week ago today. I believe I am feeling great joy today. Way better than inglorious funk! It helps that the weather is great, that the wind has slowed down. It helps that for the past two days, I've been working in the garden feeling sad for the plants that didn't make it through the winter and delighting in the forthcoming gifts from the ones that show so much promise.
Baruch ata adonai...thank you for being with me this morning and for such a clear message. I have so much in my life. I am grateful for the joy it brings me. Today I will remind myself over and over, "You are feeling great joy." And so I am. Amen